Friday, August 30, 2013

When life gives you lemons...

Make lemonade

When life gives you lemons make lemonade
 I really like this quote. It's a rather simple quote but yet after you sit and think about it it means more. What does it exactly mean? Well I believe that it means when things get sour in life make it sweet =) Pretty simple huh? Ya...not really. It takes some work. To make something "sour" into something "sweet" we must...
#1- stop being negative and start being positive.
It sounds easier then it is. I would know because being positive is something I struggle with. I usually automatically have a negative look on things. Instead of looking for the positive in every situation I look at the negative. Unfortunately I can be a "look at the glass half empty" kind of person.Not a good trait to have. It's harder for me to easily turn the sour into sweet because I'm not looking for the sweetness, I'm looking for the sour. 
Another thing you must do is...
#2 Stop complaining, start praising
So many times we complain about life instead of thank God that we actually are alive! God gave us life to live fully for him! Not walk around with our heads buried in the sand and constantly mope around. Live life to it's fullest! Live for God and he'll make the sour things in life turn sweet.
another thing we must learn is...
#3 it takes patience
Ya, this is something else I fail in. I am like so not a patient person...at all. Just ask my brother and he'll tell you =P If I don't see something happening fast I kind of give up and loose faith. But sometimes faith consists of waiting...often for a long time. When making lemonade (homemade, not the kind where you dump some powder in a thing of water and then lemonade magically appears) it takes patience. I mean you got to squeeze the lemons (don't ever squeeze lemons when you have paper cuts! It will literally burn your hand off) which takes a while, and then you got to stir it all together until you think your arms going to fall off. So yes if you want something sweet to come out of something sour you've got to have patience.
and last but not least...
#4 you must realize that more lemons make better lemonade
to be honest that's the truth. If you only put one or two lemons in your lemonade it tastes like nasty, sticky water. (at least in my opinion it does! I hate lemons but I love SUPER sweet lemonade) It takes a lot of lemons to make great lemonade! Sometimes in life God gives us sour things for we learn to take them and transform them into something sweet. We do this by keeping our faith in him. God can make anything sweet. He has our whole life planned out for us. Without lemons in our life we wouldn't be as thankful for the good things, without lemons in life we wouldn't learn to completely lean on God. We'd begin to think we've got things all figured out. That's human nature- when things start going our way we forget about God and what he's done for us. The Israelites did that when God freed them from captivity. When things were going hard they turned to God, but when things started going good they turned from him! Why is this? Why do we seem to forget about God when things are going well!?! God sends us lemons in life to show us how weak we really are, and to face the reality that we couldn't make it without him. 
Are you having lemons in your life right now? Are things a little bit sour? Just remember to lean on God, give him control, and then he will make things sweet!
I guess it means, what ever life brings you, try always to look at it on the positive way.

Thursday, August 29, 2013

Me; just different

Here are just a few things about me =) I hope you enjoy them. I got all of these off Pinterest!
Hello my name is child of the one true king<3 
=)

Yup.
Bahahahahahaha...I thought this was funny =)

 
I am a dreamer. Always have been and probably always will be.

All. The. Time. 
All.The.Time

   
Yes. I'm very tight with my money

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yep.  
   
I luv them =)

  
My mind is constantly coming up with ideas! Most of them are pretty insane though I must admit! LOL

 Little reasons to smile. 
I love roller coasters!!!!!!!!

Yes!! 
   
Oh ya! 

 ...and that's who I am 
I've actually had a pretty good start =)

...and that's who I am. 

   

  

   

  
Ha!Ha! Yes I do. I'm very dramatic =)

 writing is my escape 



Done! :D 
I love to blog =)

Ok well that's all for now! Hope you all enjoyed getting to know a little more about me.
 

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Reading.Fantasy.Reality

Happily ever after 
I love to read. I think most of you guys do too. It's amazing isn't it? The feeling of picking up a new book, opening it up, and then if it's a good book it's like you are transported to a different world. A world full of exciting characters, suspenseful plots, and very often there is a hero, and crazy things happen, and the hero almost dies like a million times but then in the end even though some sad things happened it's usually a "happily ever after" ending. Sounds great doesn't it? I actually some times wish that I was in a story world. I mean come on who wouldn't? I mean full packed action, you'd meet like awesome new friends, adventure at every corner and then usually a "happily ever after" But that's not how it is in real life is it? Most of the time there aren't any "heroes" or amazing adventures. and then of course there isn't usually a "happily ever after" Sometimes reading leads us to expect more out of life.
    But really there are heroes, there are grand adventures, and for some there are "happily ever afters"
 Sometimes I think that as Christians we have our head in the clouds when we really should have our head in the Bible. We need to wake up and realize that not everyone is going to have a "happily ever after." every one is going to die some way,some how, some time. Some of us are going to have a "happily ever after" in Heaven! But others aren't. I want everyone to have a "happily ever after" but yet not everyone is going to have one. Actually most will not. They won't have a "hero" come and save them because it's going to be too late. That is unless people like you and me do something. Maybe your thinking that your too young, or that you can't do anything to make a difference. Some people say "what's the use of trying to get people saved when most of them just reject you?" Every person matters. Even if you only lead one person to Christ, that's still making a difference. You made a difference in that one persons life, you made it possible for them to find their prince in shining armour (God) and you helped lead them safely to the castle (Heaven) where they will live "happily ever after." And all you have to do is be a servant. You see there are heroes in this world. They're the people who are servants of Christ. Just humble servants who gave their lives for Christ. I know a few heroes and someday I'd like to be one too. I think that we've both read enough books to know that in many novels sometimes the most ordinary of people become heroes. But you know what made them become a hero? They were willing to do something. They were willing to fight for what they believed in! Are you ready? Are you ready to share the good news that God died and rose again for everyone human being on this Earth? Are you going to be more then just a dreamer but a doer?

Go tell somebody that they too can have a "happily ever after" 
Be a hero.
Save a life.
Live a dream.
Fight the fight.
 




    Tuesday, August 27, 2013

    Click the link

     Click picture to learn what it's all about =)   
    Shining Bright Critique group

    My book


     A few of you guys have been asking me to do a blog post about the book I'm writing so I thought that I'd tell you a little bit about it =)  

    About:
    Tess never really healed after her sister and best friend Alanna died when she was only nine. Now Tess is fifteen and can't shake the feeling that there was something more to Alanna's death then what meets the eye. After mysterious things happen around her home Tess discovers that her parents have been hiding the truth behind her back. Why have her parents been hiding the truth from her for so long? And when Tess discovers the truth she also finds danger and her life is put into jeopardy.

    I started writing "Once upon a secret" in late February. At first I was super excited about my story, it's plot, and the characters. I seemed to be writing every day but then I started to get writers block. I'd be stuck on a scene for what seemed like days and I wrote less and less and for a while there I seemed to be completely stuck. I'm about 23,000 words in to my story so about halfway there but I don't know where to go from here. I was originally hoping to finish my book by Christmas but know I don't know if that's possible.
       My problem is I dream up these great story ideas but then when it's time to put it all together I just like loose inspiration and motivation. I begin to wonder if my book was good enough, if I was creating likable characters, entertaining dialogue, and a suspenseful plot. I began looking  for critique groups thinking that if I found some good feedback that it would help a lot. But I couldn't find any groups for teens. But then I thought of this grand idea. What if we started a critique group? Like just a few of us bloggers who are working on getting books published, we could share our stories with others and they could tell us what they think! I really would just love this. I'd love if just at least one of you would like to be my critique partner. I need some one who'd be honest about what they think about my writing. Tell me where I need to improve: Dialogue, characters, plot, etc.

    So anyway I thought that I would just throw that out there =) Any thoughts?

    Monday, August 26, 2013

    My Disney Fandom

    As many of you know I love Disney =) So here is a few things off Pinterest about Disney Princesses.

    The new Disney Princess 
    ^ This is Anna the new Disney princess off the upcoming Disney movie Frozen! Can't wait! ^

     Elsa and Anna of Arendelle -- Frozen 
    ^Anna & Elsa^ 

    Mulan. 
    Mulan

     Rapunzel's mom 
    Repunzel's mom

     Royal Jewels: ARIEL 

      
    ^ Ha!Ha! Love this =)^

     Princess Merida #Brave 
    Merida

    Rapunzel's paint box.  
    Repunzel my favorite Disney princess! I luv the movie Tangled =)

    Sunday, August 25, 2013

    Shine bright

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    I want to change the world. 
    I want to make a difference. 
    I want to change a life.
    I want to shine for God.

    Do you ever think these thoughts? Do you ever just want to spread God's love like a wildfire to the people around you? I do. I want to be a person who loves people with all of her heart. I want to encourage people, help people, and I want to shine for God. I don't want to be the "popular girl" or the "pretty girl" or the "smart girl". That's not my goal. I want to be known as the "Christian girl" the girl who is on fire for Christ. 
       Sometimes I get down, I get moody, and frankly I often tend to be gloomy, unfriendly and a little grumpy at times when things don't go exactly as I please. Don't we all do this sometimes? Sometimes we get so caught up in ourselves that we forget what's going on around us. People are dying every day and going to Hell, people are suffering inside. Peoples hearts are breaking, and all they want is for just one person to care. One person to be there, one person to talk to, one person to point them to Christ.
    1 out of 15 teenagers commit or attempt suicide in America.
    8 out of 10 teenagers struggle with depression
    ^ This makes me so sad^ 
    Something is wrong. America is growing farther and farther away from God. I have a heart for other teenagers my age. So many struggle with so many things. And they are looking for a friend. We can tell them about a friend that sticketh closer then a brother- Jesus. But just telling someone something isn't enough, we need to "show" them. We need to be God's light, a beacon of hope. People watch us; our friends, our family, everyone. And they can tell if you are a true christian or not.
       Are we true Christians? Are we sharing God's light to the world?  Are we shining bright for God or are we hiding our light under a bushel?

    Mat 5:14-16 -Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid.  Neither do men light a candle, and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick; and it giveth light unto all that are in the house.  Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven. 

    ...This little light of mine, I'm going to let it shine! 
    hide it under a bushel?
    NO!
    I'm going to let it shine.
    Don't let Satan blow it out,
    I'm going to let it shine,
    I'll let it shine till Jesus comes, I'm going to let it shine,
     let it shine, let it shine, let it shine...

    Image idea: a lightbulb with my name written in it? 

    My mission: I want people to shine!
     

    I got awarded

     
    I got awarded the Elegant Blogger award twice =) Thank you so much AnnaAbrielle for awarding me! You girls are awesome.

    Let's begin


    The questions

    1) Why did you start blogging?
    Hmmmm, well I guess I had just always wanted a blog so when my parents decided to let me have one I got one =) And I have loved blogging pretty much ever since then.

    2) What is your fashion style?
    Ha!ha! Well...um...I guess casual!?! I really don't get dressed up much besides when I go to church or a special occasion, etc. So I like dressing up nice then but when it's just an ordinary day of the week my style is pretty much...blah. LOL 


    3) What is something none of your followers know about you?
    Uh, they don't know... *random fact* that I've had frog legs!?! ( sorry couldn't think of anything else to put so ya. I have had frog legs and they were...nasty. nuth said.)

    4) What are some of your blogging goals?
    To honor God in all I say and do, and to be an encouragement to other people.

    5) Where is your favorite place to shop?
    Old Navy, thrift stores, and book stores =)

    6) What would your ideal amount of followers be?
    Well that's a tricky question. Some times I feel like I would love to have a ton! But then I've also realized that I'm happy with the awesome followers I have now =) I feel that if I did get many more followers I wouldn't have as much as a personal relationship with any of them =/ So ya I'll just take what ever I get!
    7) What are your talents?
    I guess it just matters on the person you ask. Some people say I'm good at writing others don't. Some think I'm good at graphic design. But whatever my talents may be I just want to give them to God. I think our spiritual talents mean more then other talents. 


    8) Are you a leader or a follower?
    No brainer here! If you'd ask any of my friends they would say leader! I tend to have a take charge personality, and I often end up being the leader of things. 

    9) What is one of your favorite quotes?
    I have SO many! But I'll just share two-
    "When life gives you a thousand reasons to cry give life a million reasons to smile!"
    "Everyone wants happiness, no one wants pain. But you can't have a rainbow without a little rain"
    ^ Luv those =)^

    10) What is your favorite book or series?
    This one is a toughy! I have so many favorites! Ah! I can't choose but one of my most recent favorites is The false prince and I love the series Viking Quest. But there are so many other ones I love too!

     11) Out of all of the synonyms for elegant, which would you describe yourself with (smart - stylish - dressy - graceful - dainty - fine)? 
    *laughs* to be honest none of those describe me! LOL, but if I had to chose the closest it would probably be....uh...fine? I guess. I'm really not any of those, and I'm definitely not graceful! LOL, I'm a total klutz =P

    12) What is your favorite flower?
    Camellia 

    and now for the moment you have all been waiting for =P

    let me present to you....

    THE NOMINEES 
      
    Belle @ In my life

    Autumn @  Autumn's reading & writing 
    Marissa @ Mildred Cakes 
    Abilaine @ Abilaine Cottage 
    Natalie @ Proverbs 31 girl 
    I know that's only 5 but that's all I had time to right now! So whoever else wants to take this tag can feel welcome to it =) Thanks.

    Saturday, August 24, 2013

    Scotland/Ireland Missions Trip

    Well it's finally time for me to show you guys some pictures from my trip,etc. I'm sorry it took me this long to post. I've just been super busy this last week because I just came back from my trip and we just started school this week! 
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    My trip to Scotland and Ireland this year was totally amazing and life changing. I love all of the missions trips I go on and here are some reasons why.
    1) I love meeting my team members and being able to fellowship with them
    2) I love being able to see people receive the gospel and get saved
    3) It also changes my life

    When we go on Missions trip are goals are to get God's word out, change lives, and be a blessing to the missionaries there. But I think that these missions trips are a HUGE blessing to me in my life. It's really eye opening to go to these countries and see how lost the world is. They are in total spiritual darkness. We are so blessed to be Americans and have God's word available.
      
    I also just love spending time with the team members that I meet. Our group was so awesome, and I really got to meet such amazing people. It was really hard to say goodbye! But I know that I will see them again someday if not here then in Heaven =)

    Below is a video I made for my trip! Please watch it and I hope you enjoy it!



    Please keep the people of Scotland & Ireland in your prayers and also please pray for the missionary families there
    ( The Vogelpohls, The Smiths, and the Correas)

    If you would like to learn more about our missions trips click  HERE! It would be so awesome if one of you ended up going on one of our trips =) They truly are life-changing! I can't wait for our trip to Brazil next summer! YAY!!!

    Wednesday, August 21, 2013

    I am still alive!

    Yes believe it or not I am still here! I just got back from my Europe trip LATE Monday night! It has been taking me a while to get back on our time. It was a five hour time difference. Ahhh! and the plane ride was nine hours long, a baby was screaming for almost the whole time, I was squished into a small seat, and I couldn't fall asleep! lol, I really hate long plane rides! But overall my trip to Scotland and Ireland was absolutely AMAZING! I got to meet so many awesome people, help in VBS, see souls saved, and got to pass out the word of God.
        I will try to post pictures on here as soon as possible but at the moment I don't have them =/ But I'll make sure to post bucket loads of them soon =) Just stay posted for an update.
       Oh and thank you all so much for your prayers during my trip! I really appreciate it.

     Ireland. It looks magical. Like it popped out from the pages of The Lord of the Rings or something.  

    Inishmore, Clare, Ireland....amazing!
    ^ beautiful pictures of Ireland^
     Kilchurn Castle, Scotland
     Venerable, dramatic EDINBURGH, the showcase capital of Scotland, is a historic, cosmopolitan and cultured city. The setting is wonderfully striking: perched on a series of extinct volcanoes and rocky crags which rise from the generally flat landscape of the Lothians 
    ^ two beautiful pictures of Scotland! The second one is actually a picture of Edinburgh where we were actually working in =)^

    Tuesday, August 6, 2013

    The importance of reading the right books

    "kindles don't have this kind of magic." 
    I love to read. And I also think that many other bloggers also love to read. Reading is one of my favorite things to do! I love the feeling of a good book taking me into a different world, meeting new people, and going on wonderful adventures =) But today I wanted to talk about reading the right kind of books. I know that I have had to put down so very many cool, interesting books because of bad language, or graphic romance scenes.
      Sometimes it's hard for me to put down a book that I'm really into because of these reasons, but I know it's the right thing to do. My parents are very picky about the books that I read, but they don't have the time to read all of my books before I do. So they have to trust me to some degree. They trust me to judge a book and to honestly tell them if there is something I feel is inappropriate. 
       I try my hardest to keep my parents trust and to put some books down (even if I'm totally wrapped up in the story) if there is any thing even questionable.
       Now I know that many teenagers do not have the same view on books. They think any book is OK, as long as it's not totally bad! They are Ok, with some bad language, and some bad scenes. At first it may bother them that there are some bad things in books but once they read more and more books with the same problem they don't seem to care any more-their used to it.
    Book can impact our lives, either good or bad. And most of the time we don't even notice. Psalm 139:23 says: Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: 
    God knows what we are thinking, he knows our thoughts! And we should not be ashamed for him to know them. Our thoughts should be pure and honorable but often reading books with bad language,etc, puts bad thoughts into our head.
    It's really up to us to make the final decision on how we control our thoughts, and what books we read. Even though my parents keep an eye on what I read doesn't mean they know exactly what's in all the books I read. I am the one that really decides what I'm going to read or not.
    I remember just a little while ago I was reading this amazing book! I loved it so much and was so wrapped up in it that I couldn't put it down. But then things began to get a little graphic romance wise. I realized that if I kept on reading this book I'd want to read the next one because it was a series. But I also knew the romance would almost most definitely get even more graphic. So I had a choice- keep on reading the book even though I knew my parents wouldn't approve of the book if they knew it had these things in it, or finish reading it. I have to admit it was a hard choice. I really wanted to finish it but I didn't. I wanted my parents to trust me and I didn't want to have those kind of things in my mind. While it was a good, exciting book it wasn't good for me. It was unhealthy for my thoughts and mind.

              But anyway I just thought I'd do a post about this. It's really been on my mind lately, and I thought it might be a blessing to some of you.
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    Oh and just for you all know I am leaving today for my trip! Yippee! Please continue to pray for safety and that many people would get saved. This will be my final post on here for about two weeks since I'll be gone that long. I was going to get some guest posters but I've been super busy getting ready for this trip and I didn't have time =/ So bye, I'll miss you guys!

    Monday, August 5, 2013

    Written In Love contest winner

    Well I've finally chosen the entry that won my written in love contest! It was hard to choose the winner but I had to choose one! So the winner of the written in love contest is....



    Jenny!

     

     Congrats girl =) and now here is her lovely entry for you all to read!


    Ever since I was young, I would always pick up a pencil and a notebook and scribble. When I knew how to spell words, I would write them down in my notebook. Then I knew how to form those words into a sentence. So I practiced that as well. Soon, I would write journal entry after journal entry (with lots of spelling errors and drawings.) Now, it is my greatest passion.
    I love writing more than anything else I do. One day, I hope to be a published writer and in order to reach my goal, I need to write a lot so that is what I live for. Writing helps me vent all of my thoughts out on a single sheet of paper (or word document or post) and after I’ve written something, it gives me a feeling of accomplishment, like I’ve made another step toward my goal of being a writer.
    Writing means a lot to me in life because it is a second way of communication. It helps me communicate my thoughts to other people, or to my inner self. It is enjoyable to read, but it is more satisfying to write and transport to a world that you created yourself. Whether it is poetry, an article, or fantasy, writing takes my mind off everything and makes me focus on the words that I am writing (or typing.)
    When I am at the bookstore or reading blog posts, I like to read and look for inspiration for my writing. I love seeing how other authors write (whether published or not) and their own writing style.
     I believe that everyone has their own writing style and genre that they like to write about. The genre that I love to write more than anything else is poetry. Whether I become a poet or a novelist, or even a journalist, writing is what I love the most.
     
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    Jenny you won this beautiful Keychain!

    Phillippians 4:13 Inspirational Bottle Cap Keychain 
    Please contact me with your information as soon as possible for I can send this to you! I will be leaving tomorrow for my trip so I will most likely not be able to get it to you till after that.

    Hope you all are having a wonderful day!

    Sunday, August 4, 2013

    Today is the day




    THAT I ANNOUNCE WHO WON THE "DAUGHTER OF THE KING" GIVEAWAY!!!!


    AND


    THE 


    WINNER


    IS


    HANNAH!!!!

    congrats =) You won this lovely necklace:


    SALE - Hunger Games Locket Necklace - Katniss Girl on Fire - New Movie - Bronze Filigree Pendant 

    * Hannah please email me as soon as you can for I can get your shipping information! If I don't get the info from you before Tuesday I won't be able to get it to you until after two weeks because I will be in Europe. So sorry *

    Also I've only had 3 entries for the contest and I know that at least 3 more of you told me you where thinking of entering...so if you still plan to I am giving you till tomorrow afternoon to summit your entries!

      And I also wanted to mention that I will be leaving for my Scotland and Ireland trip on Tuesday! YAY! I can't believe the time is here already! I'm so SUPER excited!!! I can't wait =) Now I just have to finish packing...

     

    But anyway I hope you all have a lovely day =)

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    Friday, August 2, 2013

    Precious Memories

    Vintage! 
    Her fingers danced gracefully across the ivory keys. She lifted her head and closed her eyes letting her hands freely skip down the keys. She smiled to herself.
    Beautiful music filled the room. She grinned even wider at the memories the music brought. Memories of when all seemed perfect.
    She sighed. She missed them.
    She missed those wonderful moments when everything seemed perfect. 
    She opened her eyes and her hands slowly slid off the piano. She looked up at her music and turned the page to yet another song. 
    She smiled again. This song brought make more memories, she began to play, her heart beating in tune with the music. She opened her mouth and she began to sing. Memories, wonderful memories unfolded in her mind. She smiled. 

    Precious memories, unseen angels
    From somewhere to my soul
    How they linger ever near me
    And the sacred scenes unfold


    Precious memories, how they linger
    How they ever flood my soul
    In the stillness of the midnight
    Precious sacred scenes unfold


    Precious father, loving mother
    Fly across the lonely years
    And old home scenes of my childhood
    In fond memory appear

     As I travel on life’s pathway
    Know not what the years may hold
    As I ponder hope grows fonder
    Precious memories flood my soul


    Precious memories, how they linger
    How they ever flood my soul
    In the stillness of the midnight
    Precious sacred scenes unfold 



    Fictional story based off picture//lyrics from the song Precious Memories

    Thursday, August 1, 2013

    Life of a missionary's kid #5

    Well this is my last post in the My life as a Missionary's kid series. Hope you have enjoyed them this far.

     

    In times of Sorrow   

    Today I would like to talk about something that I have shared with only a handful of people. It is often hard for me to talk about this but I felt that God has laid it upon my heart to share it with you so I believe I will.

    It was November 12, 2006, and my family had finally arrived at our first mission's conference in Canton, OH nine hours away from home. My mom was 27 weeks pregnant and was very exhausted from the long journey. The first night of the conference she was not feeling very well but we all figured it was because of the long journey. The next night was different. I remember waking up late in the night being confused and scared, " What's going on?" I had asked. My dad was running around the hotel room in a panic, and he had just woke up me and my brother. I could hear my mom in the bathroom but I was too tired to know what was happening. " We got to go," My dad had said, " We got to go to the hospital now!"
    ' Why," I had asked frightened. He replied saying that my mom had just had her water broke. At the time I did not know what that was and I was even more frightened, I began asking more questions but my parents didn't have time to answer me. We quickly got into the car, and headed for the hospital. I remember silently crying in the back seat. I was afraid for my mom, and for the baby. I thought something horrible must be wrong with her. I remember watching my dad holding my mom's hand trying to comfort her on the way to the hospital. As I watched them up front so many thoughts crossed my mind. I thought that I might loose my mom or the baby, but I really just didn't know what to think.
    Once we reached the hospital my parents were whisked off to a room where the doctors helped her and tried to figure out what was wrong. I remember the nurses bringing me and my brother into a little abandoned waiting room. They tried to comfort us and they told us to try to go to sleep. I was only about 7 at that time and my brother was only about 3 and I remember snuggling him up in my arms and watched him as he fell asleep. But I was far from being able to sleep. I remember just looking into the distance. I remember that there was a little aquarium in the room and I just watched those little fish swim around as tears fell down my cheeks, i prayed to God that he would protect my mom and the baby.
       
    Sometime later my dad returned and told me and my brother that my mom was fine. I had asked what was wrong, " She was having the baby," He told me. I smiled feeling relief that my mom was Ok. " Can I see her?" I asked.
    I wasn't able to see her till a while after that but when I did something in my stomach sunk, something was wrong and I could feel it. I ran up to her and wrapped my arms around her, " Where's the baby?" I asked. She turned her head but I could still see tears in her eyes, " Brittney..." She started. " I stepped back and turned to my dad," Where's the baby?" I asked again. 
    " He didn't make it Brittney. He's gone. He-he's in Heaven now."

    I don't really remember much about what happened after that. It was kind of a blur to me. I was just too shocked that my baby brother had died. I remember the day that we buried him just looking over his tombstone  that said:

    Canton Jeff Johnson

    Beloved brother and son

    November 14, 2006

    Died at birth

    " Why!?!" I had asked God, " Why did you take him away from me."


       Years later I still don't understand why God takes things away from us. But I understand now that I don't need too know. God has a perfect plan for everything, and I have peace in my heart that he took Canton away for a reason. As Christians we face hardships like anyone else. I think hardships are things to either build our faith up or it breaks it down. It all depends on how we handle things. I believe that God took Canton away to show me how precious and fragile life is, and also to love and cherish the one brother I do have. Through Canton's death my mom has also been able to reach so many people who have also lost a baby. She speaks on it sometimes, and also writes about it too. I cherish my mom, and I am constantly looking up to her. She showed so much strength when Canton died. She told me that even though the pain from having her baby die was almost unbearable, she still had peace in her heart. Peace that only God could give her.

    So I don't know how many people will read this post. I have never openly talked about this incident in my life, I have always tucked it away in my heart and always tried to keep quiet about it; that's just the way I deal with pain I guess. But I just felt like God wanted me to share that with you guys. I hope that some of you got a blessing out of it.


     from the elklands of paradise

    Song lyrics from Blessed be the name of the Lord

    The Lord giveth, he taketh away,
    Blessed be the name of the Lord;
    I served him before and I'll serve him today,
    Blessed be the name of the Lord.

    When troubles come suddenly,
    Blessed be the name!
    When strong winds blow violently,
    Blessed be the name!
    When Satan comes oppressing me,
    Blessed be the name!
    I'll still serve God faithfully,
    Blessed be the name!